My heart just broke a little writing that title.
Let’s not put the cart before the horse, but that question has popped into my mind several times over the years and more so recently.
I have big dreams to be that 88 year old lady still out running races. But I also do my best to be realistic and know that could mean running forever might not be in the cards. Maybe I should file this post for another day when I’m not feeling so emotional and thinking the worse, but somehow writing is therapeutic and lucky for you, I publish it for the world to read.
I have left a lot of this hip issue off the blog because there are really no answers or true diagnosis. My left hip has been painful off and on for a couple years. My PT ninja has reset it 6 times and every time he does, I get a couple incredibly awesome, pain free runs in. Then it seems like the joint slips out of place and I’m back in pain. The MRI is text book amazing, I’ve had 4 doctors and specialists look at the images and they all agree it looks perfect.
My frustration is I went to a sports doctor yesterday expecting answers and walked out with more questions along with his dumb advise of ‘maybe running isn’t for you.’
Yah, that went over like a fart in church.
I took Mike to see my PT and luckily he took the time to show Mike exactly what is going on. Mike is very mechanically minded so he now has a clearer understanding. Probably better than I do.
It’s too early to tell and there is no true diagnosis, which means the next step is to see a specialist in Stanford.
I am just SOOOOOO over being in doctors offices and not on the trail doing what I love. This is getting ridiculous. But the rational side of my brain is convincing me I’ve come this far, may as well keep on going. Plus I am stubborn and pretty much defy anyone who says I can’t do something.
So that’s that. I am still running, just keeping the mileage slow, low and below my pain threshold. Ha that rhymes! #nerdstatus
But damn it, I’m still freaking running.