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The breaking point

I didn’t just spend $55,000 for a new hip to end up in a wheelchair.

I am sure my podiatrist is going to put me in the dreaded boot.

I won’t be able to go back to work as soon as I hoped.

I haven’t been this sad since my Pookie dog died a few years ago.

I give up on running. If my feet can’t handle walking, how in the heck are they going to handle running?

How could I feel like I’m on the mend one day and can’t freaking walk the next?

There were tears of frustration. Lots of them, which basically never happens.

Apparently this is what my breaking point looks like.

As you can see, I have been very optimistic and not dramatic at all this week.

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About a month-ish ago there was a pain the the ball of my foot while walking. It was intermittent and quickly went away when I stopped walking so I didn’t think much of it. Over time it became more frequent until spin class became too painful, then I felt like I was walking on pokey ball stickers <-technical term and walking resembled that of a penguin.

Yesterday I woke up unable to put weight on the ball of my left foot, so I hobbled into the podiatrist sad face in tow, 100% positive he was going to put me in a boot.

Oh but there is a piping hot cup of creamy, delicious coffee at the end of the tunnel.

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 The diagnosis:

Sesamoiditis and tendonitis in the 2nd metatarsal.


He sent me to physical therapy and recommended I try Hoka One One shoes without custom orthotics.

This is the same exact thing I had last summer in the other foot. Except we skipped the whole ‘wear a boot for 8 weeks for NO REASON AT ALL’ and went straight to PT.

Rest assured poor Mike got some relief and even got to choose where we had lunch at, Dickeys BBQ in case you are wondering.

Side story: We were watching a documentary on sea life when Mike saw a sea turtle and said “hey, that’s my spirit animal” in the most calm, serious voice.

If you know Mike, then you will find this uncontrollably hilarious. It’s something you would never, ever expect him to say. I seriously can not even stop laughing and he definitely lightened the mood.

Moving on…we headed straight to The Treadmill in Carmel for some new kicks. Locals, go here! Chris & his team are amazeballz.

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After trying a bunch of shoes on and walking around outside, I ended up with the Hoka One One Conquest.

Not the most fashionable shoes ever and pretty much the opposite of what I’m used to, but at this point if someone told me to strap oversized pillows on my feet, pat my head & rub my stomach at the same time, then I could run pain free, I would.

This running thing is really making me fight for it.

Has anyone had or have sesamoiditis or tendinitis?

Have you tried or have Hoka’s?

What is your spirit animal?



Taking a step back

Good Monday morning!! I hope you had a fantastic, relaxing weekend filled with running, PR’s, eating all the delicious food and doing things you love.

Mike was gone most of the weekend so Bam & I took selfies. Sometimes you just need to sit on the dirty kitchen floor and love on your dog while he struggles to get away. Some of us were happier than others. But I guess some of us also chew their butt…

Thankfully Em arrived and saved us from ourselves.

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It is always a fantastic weekend when Emily comes to visit!!!! She is moving soon so we are soaking up as much girl time as humanly possible.

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We had a few storms roll through Saturday, so in between the pouring rain she requested some much needed beach time.

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The dimension of the clouds, ocean & rocks blew our minds. It was truly humbling & we both had thankful hearts to be there.

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We ate dinner early, watched Gilmore Girls and were in bed by 9:00. Told ya we are long lost sisters. Ha!

Sunday morning we got up early, hit up Carmel for green juice and cruised around Carmel Valley, the beach and had brunch. I’m quite impressed with the amount of fun memories we created in just a few hours. I truly miss her.

Lets skip over the part where Em had to leave and talk about the most delicious almond milk latte I have ever had. And this self appointed coffee connoisseur truly means it is the best ever.

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~~~~Subject change~~~~

After Em left I started thinking about the week ahead. Then I got bummed about this dang sesamoiditis still nagging at me.

Sometimes we feel like we’re flailing around in life and can’t see our progress, even if it’s just a tiny step forward. If we do, it seems so insignificant so why even bother acknowledging it, right?

That kind of thinking will suck life right out of us.

Man, I am honestly trying to stay positive about this sesamoditis, “cleared to run by my surgeon but can’t run irony party”. I have continued to fight for the ability to run again, find things I can do, DO them, rest, get back in the pool, etc. It seems like in spite of my best efforts & intentions, I don’t see any progress. At least it sure feels that way.


Dang, not sure how I handle all this positivity and optimism. ;)

But I forced myself to take a step back and reevaluate my progress. Here is a little list I came up with:

  • The pain is actually down quite a bit compared to a few weeks ago.
  • No swelling.
  • No longer walking with a very sad gangsta limp.
  • I stopped going on long walks and got in the pool.
  • Put my custom orthotics back inside my shoes per docs recommendation.
  • Resting a lot more.

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And guess what? I actually am making progress in the right direction. All it took was a step back to truly see how far I’ve come. There is still work to do, but it’s comforting to know I’m doing the right things.

Yesterday afternoon I started to put on my swimsuit and head to the gym, but instead decided to take the day off to relax and heal the body. So I made a nice, relaxing sweet lemon Calm with a squeeze of honey and sat in the sunshine on the patio. It was so refreshing and exactly what I needed to start thinking positive again.

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If you’re feeling similar, I encourage you to take a step back and notice all of the progress you have made. Even if it’s just a tiny step in the right direction. I bet you might notice some positive changes you may have overlooked.



Olaplex is brillance in a bottle & resetting my Garmin 220

Good Saturday morning to you!! I just wrote food instead of good. Sounds about right.

Yesterday turned out to be a rest day. I wanted to hit up the pool after I got my fur did, but storm clouds rolled in, the comfy recliner and Netflix sounded way more appealing. Bam & I watched Gilmore Girls & documentaries on the US Eisenhower and the Sierra Nevada Triangle. Whew it’s a good thing I watched that after flying through it to Vegas.

It turned out to be a good idea to let my feet rest. They are feeling better, but still sore. I hear it can take awhile to heal up so I’m trying to be patient. Trying is the key word here.

Anyway back to the hair. Mike finally got tired of hearing me cry about how homeless I looked – a lot more than usual and how expensive it is. I mean, seriously it’s just hair! So he called and made an appointment. Yah totally keeping that dude.

He dropped me off, then went to Starbucks for coffee & snacks to ensure there were no meltdowns while sitting in the chair for 3 hours. No joke.

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But it was so worth it!!

I asked for caramel lowlights – Mike’s fav, & lots of dimension. It’s darker than I expected but I think it will still look decent when it grows out. My natural hair color is dark brown. I think…

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Ashley used Olaplex during the color processing to help repair & eliminate breakage. My hair actually feels & looks super healthy. I’ve never had anyone use it (that I know of) but this stuff is brilliance in a bottle! I’m sure it helps that I don’t use a blowdryer/curling iron/straightener very often, but I’d say it’s totally worth asking your stylist about if that’s a concern.


In other news I am getting super duper excited to run again, so I took out my Garmin watch to charge, update & reset it.


I have never wiped it before, but I am pretty darn excited about a fresh start to set some new, post op records. Plus with every new fastest mile & distance record set, the watch vibrates & sings a little song and I do a happy dance. On the side of the street. Now, you know you wanna be my neighbor.

Do you ever reset your GPS watch or app? If so, how often?

What is your natural hair color?

Favorite hair product you swear by?

Organix dry hair oil. LOVE it!


I was the youngest one there & the Bam saga continues

Whew yesterday was a busy one. We had several appointments at the house all day but I knew I’d feel so much better making time for the gym. I planned to go pool running, but saw there was an aqua aerobics class starting soon. Schweet!


Pretty sure I was the youngest one there, but it was totally my element. I even made a new friend who was happy to show me the ropes, like how to make a snow angel in the pool and doing the underwater frog. I highly recommend them!

She also explained the thicker the foam on the hand weights, the more resistance and told me I choose a good set for a beginner. :)

After class we hung out in the sauna for a bit and I was ready to ninja kick the day. I had a fantastic time and can’t wait to take the deep water class soon.

Oh and the Bam begging for a bone saga continues. This was last night at 4:55. Dude needs to lose his watch.


But since I am a sucker…


Have you taken an aqua class?

What age group do you typically fit in well with?


Playing tourist: 17 Mile Drive, ghost tree, cypress tree

Welp, I made it to the spin class yesterday morning. Unfortunately after 15 minutes I had to call it quits after my foot started to ache. So I foam rolled and called it good.

Would it be rude if I told you the instructor kind of annoyed me anyway? She talked way too much and I already started to tune her out. <//end of rant>//

That’s the thing with being perpetually injured, feeling mentally okay with doing the right thing even though the mind wants to stay and tough it out.

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Look, California snow!!

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Oops just kidding.

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Yesterday I picked up a friend and we went out for a day of playing tourist. We love exploring the area during the week on the off season. Plus she knows where all the cool, less touristy trails are.

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We cruised down 17 Mile Drive which I call 17 MPH Drive.

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Ghost tree.

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The iconic Cypress tree on all of the Pebble Beach Golf logos.

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I thought this guys painting was really cool. Also the mountain range across the ocean is Point Lobos which has been on my list of hiking places when the barn is rebuilt.

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Clearly I am not the public.

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Why did the deer cross the road?

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Because all the cool kids are eating supper by the ocean. Duh.

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I have a very busy day, so I better stop wasting time online and get cracking. Who am I kidding, I will be on SM all day. Catch ya on the flipside.

Wishing you warm weather & sunshine wherever you are.

If you take fitness classes, what are some things that annoy you?

Be honest, how often are you on social media?


Look what I found

Good morning!! I’m going to make this a quick post because there’s a spin class I want to hit up. It’s becoming quite the addiction and I like it.

Yesterday we screwed around town for a bit. Mike snapped this pic as I was staring into the beautiful Pacific contemplating life. And coffee.


My doctor told me to take it easy on the paws to let the inflammation calm down, so that meant I needed to find something I CAN do. Into the pool I went for a 30 minute pool run.  It was my 2nd time in the pool post op. Unlike the first time, I felt confident my body could handle it. I got in too soon after surgery, because the body is virtually weightless it was too difficult to control movement in the hip joint. I chalk it up to a learning curve.

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I’ve been taking a gym bag with me and turns out it’s a brilliant idea. Awhile back fitmark sent me this one to try out. I can’t find the exact one I have, but here is a similar one.

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I’m kind of a nerd who is always prepared for everything. Yesterday I went to pool run with no intention of doing anything else. I felt really good after, and wanted to work on abs & arms so I just whipped out my gym gear which made for a seamless transition. Boom!

PS that little pink storage bag is genius. I tossed my wet swimsuit in and didn’t have to worry about it.

Sidenote: I lost my camera about a 6 months ago. I looked everywhere, turned the house upside down. We were going to Las Vegas and I knew I would take lots and lots of pictures. I needed a camera and not just my phone. I ended up buying a new one, and when that wouldn’t bluetooth with my iPhone, I got a new android phone in Vegas.

Well…… just found the old camera yesterday, in the side pocket of the gym bag. I just told Mike this morning. He looked at me and called me a dope! Can you believe he said that? He’s such a jerk!!! (see how I made this all about him, and not me. It’s his fault)

Arms -> planks ->abs -> stretching & foam rolling.

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Monday is my favorite day, but Tuesday has become my second. I love going to the gym, then walking a few blocks downtown to the farmers market. I hit up the organic berry stand for strawberries & blueberries. Wish my paws would have held up for more, but theres always next week!

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Annnnnd because ONE DAY!!!!!!



Fitmark did not compensate me for the shout out. I just really like their bag and wanted to share it with you. Now, don’t go saying I never do anything nice for you. ;)


Gym folks, does anyone have a bluetooth/fingerprint/other high tech lock for their locker?

What’s in your gym bag?

What are your favorite thing to pick up at the farmers market?\

Berries and artichokes.


Bone me

Rewinding to the weekend. We had some friends visit while in the area for business. Our Friday evening dinner was a disaster (good food, terrible service) but somehow they still trusted our restaurant expertise. Or the lack of. Ha!

We took them to Forge in Carmel. I remembered having a killer Cobb salad the one and only time we went so it seemed like a good idea.

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Turns out it was a hit!! The food & service were great and the prices were reasonable considering Carmel.

Between visits we wandered around the mall for a bit. I found these sports bras at Macys. They are actually Madonnas daughters line, Lola which I never saw coming, ha! After trying one on (which I loathe), I liked it so much, I picked up more.


Ohhh and every day around 4:00pm Bam sits in the kitchen by the drawer with the look of death & sadness. It’s like he got a new watch. He knows what time it is, he knows I know what time it is…….so what the hell is taking so long?!?

He has been known to sit there for an hour or more until we figure out what he’s doing. We could be sitting in the living room, look around and say, where is the dog? Dude wants a rawhide bone.

You see, at one time, I guess we gave him a bone at 4:00 PM now he just looks at the clock and says to himself, “well, it’s about that time, bone me” (yup, I know what you’re thinking, TWSS)

We give the turd nugget one and he’s good for another 24 hours.

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I am ‘thisclose’ to being able to run and graduate from physical therapy.

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Remember the weekend we hightailed it to Carmel Valley for a wine tasting? Turns out it was a bad life decision to wear flip flops.

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If needles or injections freak you out, scroll down really fast.







My gait has been cattywompus <-(a word I knew nothing about until I met Mike) since surgery and just within the last 2 weeks, it’s finally back to normal. Well, coupled that with flip flops caused a pretty gnarly case of sesamoiditis in my left paw. My doctor & his wife are also our close family friends and were over for dinner Sunday evening. He asked why I was limping a little and I told him about it. He told me to come in & get a cortisone injection to reduce the inflammation & pain.

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Oooh but it gets better. My right foot was overcompensating for it and developed a mild case of it too, so IMO may as well do the other while I’m there.

I had him laughing by saying things I f–ing do to run not so quietly.


If you ever have to get a cortisone injection, don’t wait until the pain is terrible. The left one hurt like hell, but the right was NBD. At least for me.

I hope you are having a beautiful day!!

Does anyone else loathe trying on clothes in the store?

Do you use words your significant other/BFF/family member uses? 


Life can change in a millisecond

I’m not an eloquent writer. Thoughts in my head don’t quite transfer well into writing, but it’s theraputic so that’s what I do, so bear with me on this one.

Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you try to live a thankful, humble, happy life crappy things still happen. No surprise there, but when they happen, you don’t even know how to react. I will never be able to wrap my brain around how fast life can change within seconds. Literally.

A couple weeks ago my aunt fell and hit her head. It hurt but otherwise she seemed okay. A few days later she was rushed to the ER. Turns out a blood clot developed and she had emergency brain surgery.

Pa called with the bad news while Mike & I were enjoying a sunny Saturday afternoon wandering around Pottery Barn talking about our dream home.

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This is the part where I want to delete this post, have a glass of wine and go to bed (I wrote this last night) because I really suck at the whole feelings thing. But what would the point be in me sitting here for the last 32 minutes writing all of this? So….

Surgery went very well, in fact she was talking and eating within a few days. She was even walking around the hospital when ma called with an update several days later. Doctors were very pleased with her progress and released her earlier than anticipated. I believe it was on a Friday.

Over that weekend she had a seizure and was rushed back to the ER. Long story short, she had a second emergency brain surgery. By the grace of God, it went well. She is now recovering at home and I believe she is recovering with some limitations.

As I sit here, I realize that life is extremely fragile. We say we will complete that goal later, I will visit that place someday, later later later……

One of the myriad of reasons I love my job is because I get to see folks at their happiest, often times living their life long dream of playing Pebble.

I remember a nice older man, with his wife. After playing 6, as he got into the golf cart headed to 7 tee, I overheard him say to his wife I’ve waited my whole life to play this hole, and I get to do that right now!

You see, the 7th is the signature hole at Pebble. In his mind, this was his goal, and I knew how jazzed he was to finally play it. I asked for his phone to snap a couple pictures of him living the life long dream. That smile was well worth the 30 seconds of my time. I felt excited for him!

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Another of my most memorable moments were 3 middle aged brothers with their father. As I was mixing up drinks they told me all 4 of them were from all over the US. They actually planned this trip for last year, but pops had a heart issue, and there were a couple time they weren’t sure if he would pull through. So they had to postpone their dream vacation a year.

They were having the time of their lives. Pops had a big smile on his face and all those health issues were gone. He was with his boys, playing Pebble and that’s all that mattered. I asked if I could take a picture of them and they all whipped out phones with genuine, gigantic smiles.

Sheer joy I tell ya.

I share this because sometimes we need to be reminded how fragile life is and how things can be completely different in a millisecond.

Enjoy every second you have. Take what you are given. Choose happiness. Choose joy. Live with passion. If you’re not happy, maybe it’s time to make some changes. Never give up. I know my aunt isn’t.


I didn’t expect to write this post today

Yesterday Will, my physical therapist, Mike & I met with my surgeon via Skype for a follow up. Dr. Sampson said my recovery has gone exceptionally well – better than he expected! Now that my range of motion is just about a 5 degree difference, he released me to ease into RUNNING!!!!!! That is 3 full weeks sooner than anticipated.

Then I said, no I can’t run today!! I didn’t wear my favorite Mizunos!!!! Haha Mike & Will just laughed. Mikes laugh was mostly because the spousal suffering from a broken runner shall end very soon. Muhahaha.

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But ohhhhh the irony. My left foot has developed sesamoiditis due to the grandma gait I had for awhile post op, so I can’t run right now.

That is just how life goes, right!?

I know surgery & recovery is different for everyone, but I feel like I have just sailed right through the whole process with an extremely thankful heart.

After the meeting Mike noted my progress has everything to do with having an excellent surgeon, physical therapist and a patient willing to listen & follow their advice. (Well, for the most part :)

Will said “Jacqueline, no one has worked as hard as you.” I tried to convince him that he was the brains behind the operation, but he was too humble to accept it. <3

When the barn is finally rebuilt & healed up, I will be starting out very easy on the treadmill under Will’s close supervision and cross my fingers I don’t die or body parts don’t fly off.


Now it’s time to focus on healing that dang sesamoid while of course, cracking jokes with Mike about it. Remember the whole ‘broken sesamoid’ fiasco last summer? The one where I was misdiagnosed, put in the boot, missed out on 8 weeks of work during our busy season for NO REASON at all?

The ongoing joke between Mike & I goes something like this:

Mike: Hey J, do you know what we have in common?

Me: We want to marry coffee?

Mike: We both have never broken our sesamoids.

*****Jumping off my soapbox now*****

So yeah I had a feeling it was either that or tendonitis because it felt the same way – like walking with a sticker in the ball of my foot. Fun stuff.

Up next is building confidence after an injury, but I’ll talk more about that in another post.

Happy Friday friends!!


7 completely random things I have to share with you

I celebrated 9 weeks post op with a super sweaty spin class and it was a great life decision.

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Followed it up with a hot date with the foam roller. I never, ever thought I’d say this, but I LOVE foam rolling. #weirdo

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Today is kind of a big day! I have a Skype appointment with my surgeon and will find out when I can ease back into running. Did I mention how cool he is? Since he works with celebs & high profile folks from all over the world which means they can’t always fly out for follow ups, he embraced technology. This also saves us from fighting traffic in San Francisco & Mike doesn’t have to take a day off work.

If you don’t like the weather….

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Wait 10 minutes.

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Bam logic. I am convinced he is trying to kill me.

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My quest to meet all of my friends online is going quite well.

I always see a girl running & walking her dogs by our house and often tell Mike I need to be friends with her. Last weekend I got an email from an Instagram friend interested in hanging out. Turns out that girl is Maiah , she lives around the corner from us and she makes the best vegan cupcakes I’ve ever had! Life is crazy like that.


Another Insta story…My southern friend Christina’s brand new cookbook, Dessert For Two just came in the mail!! I can already say the Blondies For Two are a HUGE winner as she personally baked me a batch that might have led to a domestic dispute over the very last one. I can’t admit to any crimes at this time due to the statue of limitations, but I can tell you how much I loved them and wish she lived closer.

You may check out her book here. #notsponsored #ijustadoreher #andthebook


Annnnnd I have been obsessed with #byefelicia since I figured out what it means earlier this week. I am now using it as my Starbucks name & saying bye Felipe to Mike as he walks out the door for work. In my defense Mike yells bye Felicia at me as he walks out the door too. #weareperfectforeachother


Where did you meet your last friend?

Has anyone taken a Flywheel or Soul Cycle class?

Nope, but I would LOVE to. We just don’t have one around Monterey.

Do you have a Starbucks name?